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Sat, 25 Dec 2010 03:05:11 +0100

Dorothy DandridgeDate: September 8, 1965Drug: Imipramine, AKA...

Sat, 25 Dec 2010 02:36:58 +0100

Dorothy Dandridge
Date: September 8, 1965
Drug: Imipramine, AKA Tofranil (antidepressant)

The first African-American to be nominated for an Academy Award for Best Actress, the 42-year-old Dandridge was found dead by her manager from what was diagnosed as “acute drug intoxication.” Her death was ruled to be due to an accidental overdose of Tofranil, an antidepressant that she took for what today might be diagnosed as bipolar disorder. Some people claim that she died from combining the Tofranil with pain medication she was taking for a broken ankle.

"Man cannot cast off this mask; it is a projection of his own flesh and spirit. He can no longer..."

Fri, 24 Dec 2010 00:41:23 +0100

“Man cannot cast off this mask; it is a projection of his own flesh and spirit. He can no longer remove from his own face this mask which has already grown like skin and flesh so he is always startled as if disbelieving this is himself, but it is in fact himself. He cannot remove this mask, and this is agony. But having manifested itself as his mask, it cannot be obliterated, because the mask is a replica of himself. It has no will of its own, or one could say it has a will but no means of expression and so prefers not to have a will. Therefore it has left man with an eternal face with which he can examine himself in amazement.”

- Gao Xingjian, Soul Mountain

white lies

Thu, 23 Dec 2010 20:25:32 +0100

white lies

2. Don Draper of Mad Men The fourth season of Mad Men saw an...

Tue, 21 Dec 2010 22:37:18 +0100

2. Don Draper of Mad Men

The fourth season of Mad Men saw an already-shaky Don Draper (Jon Hamm) spiral out of control. With an ex who resembles the devil, a struggling start-up agency, and a confused if not unhealthy relationship with booze and cigarettes, Don was definitely starting to lose it — and we’re not buying that Megan is the solution to all of his problems.

Read - TV’s 10 Most Depressed Characters

"To look life in the face. Always to look life in the face and to know it for what it is. At last to..."

Mon, 20 Dec 2010 06:19:22 +0100

“To look life in the face. Always to look life in the face and to know it for what it is. At last to know it. To love it for what it is, and then, to put it away.”

- Virginia Woolf

'Dearest,

Mon, 20 Dec 2010 03:41:12 +0100

I feel certain I am going mad again. I feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can’t concentrate.

So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don’t think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. I can’t fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can’t even write this properly. I can’t read.

What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that - everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can’t go on spoiling your life any longer.

I don’t think two people could have been happier than we have been.

V.’

Virginia Woolf’s suicide note to her husband Leonard

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Sun, 19 Dec 2010 06:20:44 +0100

Wake from your sleep The drying of your tears Today we escape We...

Fri, 17 Dec 2010 21:34:00 +0100

Wake from your sleep
The drying of your tears
Today we escape
We escape

And yet… MOST of the time, well at least 66 percent of the...

Sat, 11 Dec 2010 13:35:21 +0100

And yet…

MOST of the time, well at least 66 percent of the time, you make me feel insecure. Shitty.

The rest of the time is like a massive high that keeps me going.

I really should try to hate you.

'Room' by Emma Donoghue

Thu, 09 Dec 2010 21:55:10 +0100

Perhaps telling this story through the point of view of a five year old was a good way to avoid telling a story that actually made logical sense, after all the boy could only observe and understand so much.

First of all, I still can’t see how ‘Ma’ felt the need to spill all the gory details of her life and abduction, and then more or less guilt trip her son into being her ‘hero’ ALL within a three day period (and not bit by bit in all the years they’ve been together). Assuming she cares about his well being as much as we are told over and over again, why traumatise him like that? Are we supposed to believe he understood all this in a couple of days, considering he had led such a happy fantasy life for years.

After the escape, which was totally unrealistic, Ma, who we had come to know as a nice person becomes a total bitch. Yes a lot of this makes sense, the world is after all new and frightening and the media were not helping. However, the snapping at the hospital staff, and her extreme rudeness to her mothers husband was unnecessary. The suicide attempt would have made a lot more sense if she has not gone on and on about what a great mother she was.

A few incidental details also rubbed me the wrong way. The first obvious one was the fact that she was still breastfeeding him, and the easy way in which he could at any time come up to her and lift up her shirt (completely contradictory of the extremely structured up to the minute way in which they spent their time). Whilst every mother is entitled to do whatever they want, I personally think nursing a boy that can walk, talk, plan an escape etc etc is just a bit creepy. It felt like she was doing this more for herself than for the (wrong) belief that her body produces nutrients that could help him (as she wasn’t eating any better than him). Same thing goes for the taking baths together and general nakedness which was not sexual but created yet another warped belief in the boys head (they belong to each other, her skin is his skin) which was transferred inappropriately when he felt the need to touch his naked female cousin and wander why she did not have hair like his ma.

A question which i asked myself time and time again was why she kept him, this turned out to be the same question the interviewer asked after their escape - why did she not ask the guy to abandon him in a hospital, so he can be adopted and cared for in a more ‘normal’ environment.
When she admitted she had an abortion in her late teens (before her abduction) I wandered if she kept Jack for purely selfish reasons. I think it’s safe to say her abortion was due to the fact that she was unable to raise a child properly during that transitional (high school/college) time in her life, and so why did this logic not apply to her son? Whilst her argument that Jacks childhood was not weird, because it is/was all he knew, was a good enough excuse, I can’t help buy wander if she just wanted company in that miserable situation (can’t say if this is good or bad or if I won’t have done the same), as opposed to putting his well-being first.

All this aside I enjoyed reading the book, like a lot of people i skimmed a lot of the annoying monologues, but generally, it was a good enough story to read, if only to see how it ended.

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Wed, 08 Dec 2010 00:49:06 +0100

"You know, I read somewhere that people in unpleasant circumstances stay alive not because they think..."

Tue, 07 Dec 2010 05:42:23 +0100

“You know, I read somewhere that people in unpleasant circumstances stay alive not because they think things are gonna get better, but because they wanna know how the story ends.”

But tonight I cross the line Dear Mr Lonely how much could you...

Sun, 05 Dec 2010 01:51:12 +0100

But tonight
I cross the line
Dear Mr Lonely how much could you know me
I could find lessons in life
Over and over, is it really over…

This song is so bloody addictive!

‘Boardwalk Empire’ is (almost) every single HBO TV...

Fri, 03 Dec 2010 23:11:40 +0100

‘Boardwalk Empire’ is (almost) every single HBO TV show combined

The Girls that are Wanted

Wed, 01 Dec 2010 01:04:00 +0100

The girls that are wanted are good girls

Good from the heart to the lips

Pure as the lily is white and pure

From its heart to its sweet leaf tips

The girls that are wanted are girls with hearts

They are wanted for mothers and wives

Wanted to cradle in loving arms

The strongest and frailest of lives.

The clever, the witty, the brilliant girl

There are few who can understand

But, oh! For the wise, loving home girls

There’s a constant, steady demand.

J. H. Gray

BEST SHOW EVER!! heckyesmichaelshannon: GQ // Men of the...

Tue, 30 Nov 2010 01:04:09 +0100

BEST SHOW EVER!!

heckyesmichaelshannon:

GQ // Men of the Year 2010

"Never was much of a romantic, I could never take the intimacy. And I know it did damage,..."

Mon, 29 Nov 2010 21:34:25 +0100

““Never was much of a romantic, I could never take the intimacy.
And I know it did damage, ‘cause the look in your eyes is killin’ me.
I guess that you had an advantage… ‘cause you could blame me for everything.
And I don’t know how I’ll manage, if one day you just up and leave”.”

- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rudkeNEJk_s

Lets Have A Toast To The Douchebags Lets Have A Toast To The Ass...

Mon, 29 Nov 2010 21:26:53 +0100

Lets Have A Toast To The Douchebags
Lets Have A Toast To The Ass Holes
Lets Have A Toast To The Scumbags
Every One Of Them That I Know
Lets Have A Toast To The Jerkoffs
That Willl Never Take Work Off
Baby I Got A Plan… Runaway Fast as you can.

I can decide to zone in and fall. The problem with being such a miserable bitch is that it sometimes...

Sat, 27 Nov 2010 01:02:07 +0100

I can decide to zone in and fall.
The problem with being such a miserable bitch is that it sometimes feels noble, heroic.
My ability to love with or without really wanting it in return will one day be legendary.
I feel like I could do anything for someone I love. Where they stand in regards to my affection is completely irrelevant to the cause.
I have to decide.
Is this because deep down, I don’t feel deserving, worthy, of unconditional love.
Will I always feel slightly damaged.
Completely used up?

Broken Lipstick

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Dorothy DandridgeDate: September 8, 1965Drug: Imipramine, AKA...

"Man can­not cast off this mask; it is a pro­jec­tion of his own flesh and spirit. He can no longer..."

white lies

2. Don Draper of Mad Men The fourth season of Mad Men saw an...

"To look life in the face. Always to look life in the face and to know it for what it is. At last to..."

'Dearest,

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Wake from your sleep The drying of your tears Today we escape We...

And yet… MOST of the time, well at least 66 percent of the...

'Room' by Emma Donoghue

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"You know, I read somewhere that people in unpleasant circumstances stay alive not because they think..."

But tonight I cross the line Dear Mr Lonely how much could you...

‘Boardwalk Empire’ is (almost) every single HBO TV...

The Girls that are Wanted

BEST SHOW EVER!! heckyesmichaelshannon: GQ // Men of the...

"Never was much of a romantic, I could never take the intimacy. And I know it did damage,..."

Lets Have A Toast To The Douchebags Lets Have A Toast To The Ass...

I can decide to zone in and fall. The problem with being such a miserable bitch is that it sometimes...

"Man cannot cast off this mask; it is a projection of his own flesh and spirit. He can no longer..."